Forever feeling not good enough.

Have you ever felt like you're not good enough? So do other people.

On Tumblr:

I look on Tumblr and you see these absolutely stunning girls who have like 293923842 notes. You see these skinny girls kissing their boyfriends on a bed or in a field and think, why cant that be me? They stand there in their underwear in front of millions of people and don't care. I cant even stand in front of my own mirror in my under wear because I hate looking at myself. 

E.g:

On TV shows: 

On tv shows when you never get the fat girl who ends up happy. It's always the skinny, bubbly, happy girl who gets the guy and ends up being happy. People are always focusing on girls (and guys) who aren't societies view of beautiful as being ugly. How is that going to try and change the next generation's view? I get that fat doesn't sell but take Adele; Adele is an amazing singer who has this incredible talent. What do the media and the public focus on? Her weight. 

People make jokes like, 'Adele comes out of a buffet restaurant singing, 'WE COULD'VE HAD IT ALLLL'' but Adele is a strong, independent woman who has her own views on the subject. 'If they offered me £10million, I’d be like f*** off. Besides if I was going to be the face of anything it should be the face of full-fat coke' This was Adele on being asked if she would be the face of Diet Coke. 

Me personally... I dont want to be stick thin and a horrible person. I would rather be curvy and be happy. This is why Adele is such an inspiration to not only me but a thousand other women. 

In general life:

I go to a college where there are hundreds of beautiful girls and I feel so inadequate around them; not just the girls but the guys as well. Every guy that I have liked has turned around to me and told me he likes *insert name here* which will end up to be a on point with fashion, skinny, funny and all around perfect girl. It's so hard to be an individual when society makes it so hard to fit in but I guess that's how the world works. 

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. 

Twitter Trending Topic: What I Find Attractive.

What 5 things do I find most attractive about a guy?


1) Sense of humor. 

For a majority of my life I've been sad but laughing with various different people has helped me through. Whether it's that awkward conversation when you're in a queue and someone makes you laugh or it's the laugh that you have in lessons that actually make your stomach hurt.

I have been in two serious relationships and both of them had a sense of humor. I cant ever imagine being with someone who didn't have a sense of humor. Whats the point? Laughing is one of the best medicines you can have. 

2) A nice smile.

Smiling is one of THE most beautiful things about life. I've always noticed that a simple smile can make a person's day. It's a nonverbal way of communicating with someone. For example: I was sat on the train a couple of weeks ago and there was this really attractive guy  who seemed kind of sad when he got on the train. I turned to look at him and caught his eye, smiled at him and he smiled back. Maybe that didn't help his mood but he may have realized that not everything is bad. 

I really don't mind if a guy has braces or he hates his smile. I know that a smile can completely change a mood. Smiles are beautiful. 

3)  Caring. 

Now, Im not asking for someone who texts me every 5 minutes asking: "Are you okay? Where are you? Do you need me to call you? Please tell me you're not sad." because that would just be incredibly annoying but I think that a simple text asking: "Are you okay? :)" is such a simple but lovely touch. It shows that they're thinking about you but not being borderline obsessive.

In addition, caring is also something that I have noticed a huge amount since I have been at college. If I'm sad in psychology then Harry will ask, 'Are you okay?'. It's kinda nice to know that I have those sorts of people in my life already. 

4)  Romantic. 

I have NEVER been with a romantic guy, ever. The most romantic I ever had was them telling me that one day we would move out of this country, to New York and we would laugh at the people who looked like ants as we towered above them in our apartment. I want a guy to say to me, 'how about we go out for dinner?' but of course, I'd pay for my fair share. 

Men.

I'm going to list 3 different reasons why I do not like men:
I would just like to point out that this doesn't apply to all men.

1. They think the world revolves around them - No love, the world does not revolve around you, you are merely one human being in billions. Remove your head from your backside and realize that not everything is about you.
   
   An example of this - The other day I got on the train to go home from East Croydon and I had a LOT of shopping bags. This guy could see that I was struggling to hold all of my stuff so he moved his feet even further out so I couldn't put my bags down. Why? There's no need, really no need.
    
2. They are so full of themselves. - They walk around with their 'swagger' like, 'You want a piece of this, baby?' No thank you! I'd rather kiss a horse.
   
3. They think that women belong in the kitchen and shouldn't be seen. Sorry what? I cant really cook so if you expect me to be in the kitchen making you a sandwich, you'll go hungry love. 

People.

It annoys me when you become really close with someone and all of a sudden they decide that they no longer care about what happens in your life.
It's not that you have done anything wrong it just that people are selfish.
I want an explanation from you as to why you just find that you can hurt me by stopping our friendship for no reason. You need to step up and become a man; friendship isn't about hurting each other its about appreciating the other person for who they are. I appreciated you. Hell, I practically loved you but you showed that you are just like everyone else. You come along, tell me that it's going to be different and then just hurt me like the rest of them.
Anyway, as Beyonce put it:
'So when I think of the time that I almost loved you, You showed your ass and I saw the real you,
Thank God you blew it,
Thank God I dodged the bullet.'

Harper Seven!

David and Victoria Beckham have just had a baby (well not David because he cant give birth but, you know) called Harper Seven. 

Right, I understand why they called one of their kids Brooklyn because that was where he was conceived and that's an amazing place anyway but why would you call a girl 'Seven'?! I understand the Harper part because I have a friend called Harper and it's a pretty name but seriously?
Fair enough that David Beckham's shirt number was '7' before he joined Manchester United but I really do not understand.

It was bad enough for Katie Price and Peter Andre to call their kid Princess Tiaamii.



Other strange celebrity baby names include: 

• Fifi Trixibell: Bob Geldof and Paula Yates (also parents to Peaches and Pixie)
• Liberty: Ryan Giggs
• Sage Moonblood: Sylvester Stallone and Sasha Czack (also parents to Seargeoh)
• Zola Ivy: Eddie Murphy and Nicole Mitchell
  

My mum called me Nathalie, how uncool do I feel? No seriously celebrities, it's not a competition on who can name their kids the oddest name. They have to grow up with that name, think about it before you make a rash decision. 

Rimmel London. 'I love lasting finish' nail polish.

Green - Green Grass
Pink - Hot Shot
Blue - Azure









Basically I've been going through a stage where I absolutely LOVE bright colours!
These nail polishes completely stood out on the shelf so I brought them. On the back of the bottle it clearly states 'chip resistant'. I have a Saturday job in a cafe which means I cook, wash up, load a dishwasher ect
Friday night I painted my nails and I painted them 'Azure blue', at 2:30pm on saturday afternoon they had all chipped. That's less than 24 hours!
If you're thinking about buying them, do because the colours are gorgeous but just make sure you keep some in your bag so you can reapply! :)

02.

Okay, I'm good.

I would just like to point out how disgusted I am that 02 have let me down once again.

First of all, I have to explain my massive charade that I've had with 02:

Basically, I purchased a phone contract from them in London and everything was fine until I got home and my contract wasn't going through. So I rang up o2 and they told me to go into the nearest shop and they would sort it out. I got there and they told me that as the contract hadn't closed properly they were taking my phone away and giving me a purple phone that looked like a kidney bean. My mum walked in and practically screamed at the woman who worked in o2, not in a chav mum kinda way but in a sophisticated mum kinda way.
So anyway in the end they gave me back my phone but charged my mum £100 for my first phone bill.

The reason they have annoyed me today is because I accidentally opened their stupid link at the top of 'hotmail' which I opened on safari (on my iPhone). A video has tried to load up but failed which has left me with a black screen on safari and I cant do anything about it.

I HATE O2.